This is about all I can muster up at the moment, but there will be more to come.
We are celebrating Mattie’s 4th Birthday today, breathing in and out, celebrating the gift that we were given and mourning deeply that he is not here.
October 20, 2010
October 20, 2011
October 20, 2012
October 20, 2013
Oh son, I celebrate your life every moment of every day.
I wake up and breathe in the pain and the miracle all at the same time.
My heart will be forever changed.
You gave and gave and gave, and you left your very spirit emblazoned on my heart.
I’m certain today that all of heaven is rejoicing and celebrating the silly brown eyed boy with the wild curls that blow in heaven’s breeze.
I’m certain today, the angels are rolling back their heads in laughter at the crazy faces you make as you chase them down.
I’m certain the Father of All has tossed you in the air just like your earthly father did and is whispering beautiful love songs in your ear.
I just wish I could see it all.
I wish there was not this great divide between heaven and earth.
Until that day, I close my eyes…… and I love you.
If you would like to celebrate with us, I would ask you to take a photo today with a cupcake, a balloon or a pinwheel to wish our little man a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Use #happybirthdaymattie please on Instagram or Facebook.