There is nothing normal about any of this, yet normal rages all around me.
I’m walking around in a “normal” world with a gapping hole in my heart.
I get on Facebook and the “normal” world makes my head spin.
I walk around Target, I stop to get gas, I go to the gym. All normal things in my very abnormal world.
I can’t watch the news.
I have no space in my brain for politics or ethical controversies.
I have to do normal things.
I have to make dinner and run the vacuum.
I have to try to run a business.
I have to help kids with homework and take them to swimming lessons and gymnastics.
I have to take a shower and get dressed.
I have to get kids on the bus on time.
And some days those normal things make me want to scream.
Normal RAGES all around me.
They tell me I will find my “new normal”.
I assume they are right.
I sure haven’t even come close to finding it yet.
I left “normal” 2 months ago.
And I feel like it’s going to be a long journey to find my new home.