I am comfortable in my own skin.
No make up.
3 days with no shower.
I’m finally ok with me, and it has nothing to do with my appearance.
It has to do with what I am uncovering on the inside.
I couldn’t have said this and probably wouldn’t have shared a photo like this a year ago.
I remember a photo I posted on Instagram back in January, I was headed to the gym and my sister commented, “You’re going to the GYM! Why do you have MAKE UP on!”
I may have said, “Oh it’s just a little mascara,” but in reality it was probably a little more than that.
I can remember one time I accidentally went to Target without make up and was mortified.
I prayed no one I know would see me.
Do I have a problem with women wearing make up? Nope. I wear it all the time.
What is sad though, very sad, is that for years, I didn’t feel pretty without it. For years, it was to cover up layers upon layers of insecurity.
The longer I’ve been on this journey of reclaiming my health and learning to take care of ME, the more I realize that I like ME.
I really like me.
Who I am.
I’m a good mother. I love, I care, I fight hard, I listen, I give, I speak, I touch, I hold, I share, I reach in.
That is the ME that they need and love.
I’m a good wife.
I love him and he loves me. He could care less if I’m all made up or have a bandana on my head.
I am his friend. I love. I give. I listen. I care. I make him laugh. I get him. I speak words of hope over his heart. I believe in him.
That is the ME that he needs and loves.
I am at what I do with my hands.
I work hard. I give hard. I serve well. I believe these things to be true about myself.
I am passionate, creative, committed, determined.
It is OK to be confident in who you are.
And somedays I forget to take a shower and sit down to work because it is part of WHO I am.
I took this last photo just minutes after my 7 year old told me, “Mom, you’re so beautiful.”
Crazy hair, no make up, jammies on…. BEAUTIFUL.
This made me happy on a 100 different levels, but mainly because I am raising daughters whose definition of BEAUTY is spot on.
So let me talk to you. Listen carefully.
You are beautiful. You are a treasure. You are valuable.
If when I say those words, you do not believe them, then you need to find out what lies you’ve been feeding your soul.
As I transformed my outside this year, I have also transformed my inside.
It has taken as long as the outer transformation.
But it is there.
It is real.
I am happy to be me.