This week the Lord has been speaking to me about walking out the gospel with unconditional love, no strings attached. As we have been praying for our birth parents and the son they have asked us to raise as our own, as we prepared for our recent meeting with them, and as we now walk out the remaining days until Mattie’s birth, the Lord keeps reminding me of His love and asking me to walk with a “no strings attached” kind of love.
I was hit a few times with fear this week, wondering how my heart will take it “if” this adoption doesn’t take place. No adoption is certain until it is “official.” And as much as it would be human nature to hold back love or keep a part of my heart unconnected, I just can’t do it. I’ve chosen to love fully now. One day, I want to tell my son how I longed for his arrival, how I prayed, how I prepared, and how I loved him from the moment his life was made known to me.
But here’s the gospel truth. He loved me before I loved Him. He poured out His love, His very life, before I even knew His name. He gave all, so that I could be fully His. He did it all with no strings attached. He gave all.
So I’m loving my boy and his precious birth parents with no strings attached, fully committed to loving with all of my heart.